Life has been so hectic for the past few months and some things have become a routine for me. To a point where I felt sooo exhausted. Being a full time working mum has totally took a toll on me not just physical but mentally. At times, I even go to bed at almost 1am.

With the non stopping demand from work, it just adds on to what I already have in my hands. Not everyone understand that breastfeeding mum's need is as important as a pregnant woman. When you're in stress or you're rushing during pumping, it's hard to focus on what you're doing. From my 6 months experience, many mummies told me that they're under produced mum but from what I understand, I believe they lost focus during their pumping session like rushing for meetings or thinking about their workload. On top of that, demand from bosses just adds on the pressure. If only people understand what breastfeeding mums a.k.a ftwm has to go through.

I'm very indeed blessed with abundance of breast milk. In fact, I have extras to donate to other babies almost on a weekly basis. Hey, I'm not complaining though. Why not help other babies in need kan.



So our trip to Lombok was something I've been looking forward to although it was hard to leave #babyjedi behind. At least I have some time off from mummy duty. We didn't have any itinerary in hand and accommodation was confirmed a few days before our departure. We spent half of our day touring around Lombok and half a day at the home stay. We didn't travel far. Only around Senggigi and nearby Lombok airport.

Our purpose was to really relax without having any plan. Plus my travel buddy was pregnant, so we reduce any activities that might tire her out. We had breakfast cooked freshly every morning, lepaking by the pool. Macam mat saleh la. It was really nice. Not having to think about anything but perhaps I might bring #babyjedi in my next trip. Rindu...

Feeling refresh after taking 4 days off from my work desk. It has been more than a year since I last boarded a plane. It was because I was pregnant and not fit to fly.

Our Lombok trip was a planned one and tix were bought end of last year during the Air Asia sale. We wanted to go for an all girls short trip. Away from the husband and baby. Turned out it was hard to leave #babyjedi behind. Lain kali kena tag along la.

So we flew with Air Asia on an afternoon flight 3.40pm and it took us 3 hours to arrive Lombok International Airport. The airport was relatively small so you don't have much things to do to kill time. Since we arrive at night, we can't see how Lombok looked like.

We headed straight to our homestay by a shuttle bus with reasonable price, Damri shuttle. The bus service is available from Bandara Internasional Lombok to service passengers wishing to travel to and from either Mataram or Senggigi. The 8 DAMRI buses serving the route have a capacity of approximately 40 passengers, 10 further buses with a 20 passenger are expected to complement the fleet but have not been delivered. They are new air-conditioned buses and are white in colour.

DAMRI services depart from their office located in eastern Mataram on Jl. Tuan Guru Faisal (a three minute taxi ride from the Mandalinka Bus Station) every hour and proceed to the airport, commencing at 04:00 with the last bus leaving that terminal at 19:00.

The fare from/to the Mataram is fixed at Rp 25,000 per person which is equivalent to RM7.90

DAMRI services are also provided to connect Senggigi to the airport departing Senggigi from 03:00 and then every 1.5 hr until the last departure from Senggigi at 20:00. Some airport buses may provide services between Mandelika and Senggigi. In the last couple of months these services have not been accurately following the published schedules, ensure you leave plenty of buffer time if catching a departing flight.

If all mothers can relate to me, you know that you go through a big change the moment you gave birth to your beautiful baby. I used to have time to dress up, make up, wear pretty dresses and high heel. but now, I'm clad in T-shirt and cotton pants, most of the time. I rarely attend weddings or other functions. Even if I do, I wear my work clothes cause that's what I'm now comfortable in. Easy and fast.

The last thing I want to worry is having dark circles, eye bag, wrinkles and other signs of aging. Enough of having fashion disaster, I want to avoid looking like a zombie. Away with my dream of being a 'hot mama' cause that's not gonna happen until #babyjedi turns 2 *roll eyes*.

I used to walk along the shelves in Watson looking at this glass bottle containing gold flakes and wonder if it really works. The price is not expensive but it wouldn't be any of use if I don't apply them on my face. Then one day I thought 'Now or never'.

It's similar to SK II Miracle Water but it comes with REAL gold flakes infused in the bottle itself. Price wise, it's affordable and it can last you many, many, many months.

It has been over a month since I started using it and honestly I kinda like the result. With lack of sleep after having Isa, it protects my skin from the harsh radical contained in our air. This water also gave me the moisture that I need for my skin. But the one thing I dislike is, it tends to leave this sticky feeling on your skin and takes time to fully absorb.

1. Formulated with 98% genuine 24K GOLD, Bio-essence's 24K Bio-Gold series promises to restore skin's natural glow with various all-in-one benefits:
2. Glow from within
3. Uniquely enhanced with Bio-Energy Fluid, 24K Bio-Gold is formulated to promote rapid absorption into skin to give you long-lasting smooth, moiturized, soft and youthful complexion, forming a strong protective shield over skin to fight free radicals and slow down signs of ageing.

When you're pregnant with your first born, everything seems irresistible. When you walk pass baby section in hypermarket, you go all WOW with baby stuff and you find them so cute. And when that happens, you usually end up buying stuff that you don't need.

I often forget that July is a special month for the 2 most important person in my life. It's the birthday of my dad and Juan. Last year, I forgot Juan's birthday and remembered only after about 2 weeks
 -___-' . He gave me a black face for the whole week and I had to hear him ungkit for the next few weeks after that. Gosh.

And today, I knew my dad's birthday when I saw a notification on my Skype. Goodness sake. Previously I never remember anyone's birthday except for my sister and myself. Don't ask me why but I just can't remember.

My dad is a very very very simple person and my sister and I often tell everything to my dad. From education, movies, politics, boys, we talk almost anything and everything with him. Although he travels most of his life and stays far away from the family, we never felt the distance cause he's constantly catching up on us.

This year is extra special cause my dad is celebrating his birthday as a first time grand dad. Hahahaha.

So here a shout out to the hero of my life. Happy Birthday daddy. Semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki and diberikan kesihatan yang baik untuk jaga cucu yang baru nak tumbuh gigi *laugh*

So this year will be my first year and first time celebrating Mother's Day. It didn't hit me in the head that I'll be one of the million mothers around the world being celebrated until a few days before. I was excited, not to mention happy too. Although #babyjedi couldn't talk yet but I know he wished me telepathically 😃 .

Anywho, I was in my hometown the week of Mother's Day, so practically we had 2 mums in the house (me and my mum). I wanted to have KFC while my mum wanted pizza. We had to choose and I think you know where we headed. Obviously mummy Timah has made her decision, so no one can say 'No'.

It was just the 4 of us as Juan stayed back in Penang. Got a call from Dianah, wishing me 'Happy Mother's Day, kak'. It was really surreal being able to celebrate this special occasion at last. For all the hard work mothers had to do, difficulties mothers had to deal with especially working mums out there.

#babyjedi is turning 4 months in a few weeks time. I can't believe that he's that big already. I remember feeling labor pain like yesterday. He's in the talking phase now so it's fun to have conversation with him cause he's a smiling baby too. Not to mention throwing tantrum every time during his nap time. Other than that, whenever you talk to him, he smiles. How can I not melt ☺

We didn't took any photo of the celebration cause were too busy attending to #babyjedi cause he was crying all over the restaurant cause it was past his bedtime and daddy was panic that he choke on his tea -__-'. What a drama...

If you haven't read about my journey in giving birth to #babyjedi, you can read it here

By the time I was fully dilated, it was about 3 pm. I was sleeping like a baby before that after getting a shot of pain killer at my butt. It was so good to get a quick rest after not being to sleep the whole night.

I felt a shake when I opened my eyes. It was the nurse who woke me up and asking me to push the baby. By the time my eyes were wide awake (but still drowsy), my gynae was in front of me with my legs wide open -__-' . It was a battle. The nurses and midwive asked me to push whenever I feel a contraction. I did and all I can feel is my shit splurging out. Oh God. In the end, they decided that #isayong had to be vacuumed out because I was losing energy and that it's taking too long for him to come out.

By the time I went 'kong', I could see the nurse was measuring #isayong and walking towards me (my visions were still blurry at that time). I had skin-to-skin contact for about an hour before I was pushed to my room. That was the last time I saw my baby until about 10pm, when the meds were 50% out of my system. I walked to the nursery to breastfeed him for the first time. Didn't have difficulty in walking but I walked slowly to make sure I didnt' tear the stitches open. I felt so awkward having a little human hanging onto your boob but the feeling was indescribable. I was very lucky that my milk kicked in even before I was in labor. It was around 3rd trimester and the fact that #isayong could latch right away, he makes breastfeeding quite a breeze although now I'm struggling a little on how to latch him properly. My labor was easy as well as my pregnancy. Now to focus on grooming #isayong into a #hipsterbaby .Hahahaha
Having #isayong and being a mother for the first time will always be the best memory I've ever had in my life. It's definitely a lifetime learning for all of us. I've always been scared about how things will turn out once the baby is here. Well, it was definitely a life changing experience. To be honest, I'm still adjusting myself as a mother, scheduling my activity around the baby, juggling between work and having to commute weekly to see him, planning his future savings, etc.  I was a wee bit adjusting at first but now , slowly I'm getting a hang of it. I told myself to take things one step at a time and not to overthink things, filtering out what's important and what's not. Planning is very important when you have a baby.

So those who's not ready to have a child yet, don't worry too much. Anak itu rezeki and alhamdulillah #isayong has been nothing but blessing to me, Juan and both my parents. You'll never be ready for anything so sometimes you have to go with the flow and let nature takes its course. Insyaallah, you'll be prepared than ever.