Well, a month plus more to go before the real day comes. To update you readers on what has been going on for the past couple of weeks.

1. First and foremost, the accommodation issue has been sorted out by the parents. I have delegated the task to both of them as they stay near to the venue. It was too much of planning, organizing and confirming from a far.

2. As for my photo props, they're only 1/4 done. I'm not even half way there and I need to pass these items to my best friend who will be handling 99% of the event. I might just purchase them -__-

3. I can feel a decrease in my weight. Though I have yet to weight them. It seems easy to fit some of my tight jeans.

4. Definitely lost in appetite. I'm been growing fond to food like sandwiches, fruits and instant noodles but not into energy provider food like rice and I try to stay away from oily food like curries to prevent any early breakouts because they heal very slow. So my breakfast now consist of scrambled eggs with 2 toasts in the morning accompanied with a cup of milk tea. Usually, I'll keep the toast and grilled them on the grill pan for dinner. 

5. Sudden increase in caffeine intake. Yes, very obvious. After my milk tea, I'll make sure I make myself half cup or full cup of white coffee. But I'm trying to cut them down.

6. Lack of sleep. Oh yes, that is definitely. Even when I go to bed earlier than usual, I tend to wake up middle of the night without any reason of having nightmares. Wake up with cold sweat and panic attack. After that, there will be no sleep for me until the next night. So my average sleeping time is roughly 3 to 4 hours.

7. Mood swing. Tick to that as well. I just shut myself from everyone including people in the office. Felt annoyed even people is only trying to smile at me. I only want to rot myself at home under the blanket, on my bed.

I know I needed to calm down. But having so much in my hands to deal with, I just snapped. I just want to make sure that everything goes smoothly. 

Honestly, the one thing I'm looking forward to (apart from the beautiful dresses, the decos) are meeting family and friends from a far. The other thing is, having my best friends as my bridemaids. Never I imagine that it will be real. I know things going to be alright but for now, it's just chaos.

To all NH fans out there including me, Nurita Harith has recently launched her new collection for Aildilfitri 2014. With the Raya celebration in less that 3 months time, I bet most of us has started the preparations. Well, Raya 2014 will be slightly different for me. Instead of celebrating just the 4 of us, we now have an additional 1 member to the family, which is Juan.

Back to NH. You can view their collection at NH|Nurita Harith or you can purchase her collections at Fashion Valet

I took an extra leave on 2nd of May, a day after the labor day which falls on the 1st day of May. Reason being, I needed to pass my ROM application form or 'borang nikah'. It was lucky for me that Alla and Rozaimi were back in Perlis for that weekend. So they picked me up and we drove to the State Religious Department in Perlis. To my surprise, the process of the submission was easy peasy. It was not as hard as some claimed. The only hassle was you need to photocopy your identification card and you future spouse, a copy of a document to prove that your dad is a mualaf (if he is), just the front cover of the conversion document is enough, documents from the groom side, borang M and borang O(for the bride). 

At the 3rd page of the borang M, refer to which Qaryah you belong to (you can check with the religious officer when you take the forms) and contact the Imam of the mosque to obtain his stamping and signature. The Imam will also act as Kadi on the day of your ROM/nikah. Imam will also help you to get 2 witnesses on the day of the ROM as well. There will be 2 witnesses needed for the borang M(only for the bride side). It can be either your brother, uncle or neighbor who knows you well. But please be mindful that, you CANNOT get 2 of your brothers (if you have 2) because they were born by the same mother. For example, it should be one of your brother and another witness can be your uncle/neighbor. If you do not have brothers, the witnesses should come from 2 of your neighbors. Remember to obtain a photocopy of their identification card too.

Since I had 4 days of holiday, I'd thought it would be nice to spend some time with my father. We hardly have the time where only 2 of us were there. It was either Dianah with my dad or my mum with my dad. Coincidentally, my mother was in Singapore. She only comes back a day after I left for Penang. Didn't had the chance to cook because I do not know where Cik Timah store her pots and pants, cutleries, and what needed for cooking. So it was pretty hard to move around the kitchen. But I did clean up the house though. We went to Alor Star on Saturday to find cushions for 2 of my DIY refurbished furniture and had dinner as well.

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It took me a while to finish up this post. I'm worry that I might say the wrong thing. You know, people can twist your words in social media. With so many things going around and with my hands are tied, I can't find time to actually write this post till today. I have so many things to think about and the last thing I want is people throwing words and sarcasm at me about this issue. So this is my side of the story about donning the hijab:

As some of you noticed, I had once posted a post, mentioning about having the intention to don the tudung previously. You can see me, on and off with the tudung on my social media. I have more photos of me wearing the tudung compared to previously. I have people asking me or curious to know whether I have actually do it full time. The answer is, No. Sorry to disappoint you.

 Islam is not about forcing and Islam itself does not judge but we, the outcome of our Creator, are sadly. All the wars around the world are created by us not Him. I may not be as pious as some of you but I know my limits. I know some of you have good intention. But I do hope that you can stop asking me what am I actually planning to do. I'm in the learning stage and I believe everyone is in their leaning curve. Learning never end. I'm trying to do what is right and I think I know which is right and which is wrong. Yes, along the way, I feel like giving up. I thought to myself, why am I doing this?But I get help from Him to give me strength to continue, if what I'm doing is right. 

If you ask me whether, am I scared, excited or nervous, etc? Of course I do. I can't expect how society would see me as a person donning the hijab. Throughout my life, I only wear them during school years because it was compulsory for Muslim girls. To be wearing them again for the rest of my life, is the next big thing for me. It's change, which I can say, Alhamdulillah, at the end of the day. But that doesn't change me as a friend, wife or daughter.

Every religion are different. So don't judge each other. At the end of the day, it comes back to you. So don't criticize or being sarcastic about others. Look at yourself first before saying about others. We're made of blood and flesh and we bleed if we're wounded. We all have the same blood in us.

I want to do this the right way. When you have the intention to do something good, you already gain 'pahala', let alone doing itself. The 'pahala' is even bigger. I know some of us could change overnight. Remember, not everyone. You do not have the right to judge a person if she's learning to cover up her aurat, even if it means 'sometimes'. At least she already started to practice and she made the first move. She already have the intention. We wear hijab to please Allah, not others. So why judge? Why?

" The deeds are considered by their intentions, and a person will get the reward according to his intentions. So whoever emigrated for Allah and his Messenger, then his emigration will be for Allah and his Messenger; and whoever emigrated for worldly benefits or for a woman to marry, his emigration would be for what he emigrated for." ~Al-Bukhari

Covering up is not just about covering up your 'aurat'. It's about changing your lifestyle too. How you act, your attitude, how you talk to others, respecting people and so on. It's about covering inside out. Each and every one of us has the right to make decision for themselves, so leave this to me. It's between me and Him. It doesn't change the fact that I'm a Muslim. Don't be judgmental. We're equal on this temporary world. Instead, be happy that your 'sisters' are changing to a betterment. How about you? Have you started yet? Question yourself before you question others. You are no near to perfect, so do I, but at least we're trying to learn about our religion. Not just by religion written on your birth certificate.

For me, covering up your aurat is a beautiful thing. Do not tarnish this with your ungrateful words. It hurts. Give good advise, smile to that person when speaking, tell her that she's doing a good deed. We, humans, are fuel by motivation from others. So please don't tell me you're not. You like when people compliment you in any aspect, beauty particularly. That's one of the reason Allah created us. To support each other. No one can live alone forever. We're all destined to help each other as brothers and sisters. We all came from one source so don't create the differences. You and me are no different. Full of sins and now, trying to change. 

To those non-Muslims, it doesn't change your Muslim friend into someone else, she is still that blur and quirky girl you knew back then. It's just that she choose a different path. A path that gives her the tranquility and peace she long needed.

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