I took an extra leave on 2nd of May, a day after the labor day which falls on the 1st day of May. Reason being, I needed to pass my ROM application form or 'borang nikah'. It was lucky for me that Alla and Rozaimi were back in Perlis for that weekend. So they picked me up and we drove to the State Religious Department in Perlis. To my surprise, the process of the submission was easy peasy. It was not as hard as some claimed. The only hassle was you need to photocopy your identification card and you future spouse, a copy of a document to prove that your dad is a mualaf (if he is), just the front cover of the conversion document is enough, documents from the groom side, borang M and borang O(for the bride). 

At the 3rd page of the borang M, refer to which Qaryah you belong to (you can check with the religious officer when you take the forms) and contact the Imam of the mosque to obtain his stamping and signature. The Imam will also act as Kadi on the day of your ROM/nikah. Imam will also help you to get 2 witnesses on the day of the ROM as well. There will be 2 witnesses needed for the borang M(only for the bride side). It can be either your brother, uncle or neighbor who knows you well. But please be mindful that, you CANNOT get 2 of your brothers (if you have 2) because they were born by the same mother. For example, it should be one of your brother and another witness can be your uncle/neighbor. If you do not have brothers, the witnesses should come from 2 of your neighbors. Remember to obtain a photocopy of their identification card too.

Since I had 4 days of holiday, I'd thought it would be nice to spend some time with my father. We hardly have the time where only 2 of us were there. It was either Dianah with my dad or my mum with my dad. Coincidentally, my mother was in Singapore. She only comes back a day after I left for Penang. Didn't had the chance to cook because I do not know where Cik Timah store her pots and pants, cutleries, and what needed for cooking. So it was pretty hard to move around the kitchen. But I did clean up the house though. We went to Alor Star on Saturday to find cushions for 2 of my DIY refurbished furniture and had dinner as well.

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It took me a while to finish up this post. I'm worry that I might say the wrong thing. You know, people can twist your words in social media. With so many things going around and with my hands are tied, I can't find time to actually write this post till today. I have so many things to think about and the last thing I want is people throwing words and sarcasm at me about this issue. So this is my side of the story about donning the hijab:

As some of you noticed, I had once posted a post, mentioning about having the intention to don the tudung previously. You can see me, on and off with the tudung on my social media. I have more photos of me wearing the tudung compared to previously. I have people asking me or curious to know whether I have actually do it full time. The answer is, No. Sorry to disappoint you.

 Islam is not about forcing and Islam itself does not judge but we, the outcome of our Creator, are sadly. All the wars around the world are created by us not Him. I may not be as pious as some of you but I know my limits. I know some of you have good intention. But I do hope that you can stop asking me what am I actually planning to do. I'm in the learning stage and I believe everyone is in their leaning curve. Learning never end. I'm trying to do what is right and I think I know which is right and which is wrong. Yes, along the way, I feel like giving up. I thought to myself, why am I doing this?But I get help from Him to give me strength to continue, if what I'm doing is right. 

If you ask me whether, am I scared, excited or nervous, etc? Of course I do. I can't expect how society would see me as a person donning the hijab. Throughout my life, I only wear them during school years because it was compulsory for Muslim girls. To be wearing them again for the rest of my life, is the next big thing for me. It's change, which I can say, Alhamdulillah, at the end of the day. But that doesn't change me as a friend, wife or daughter.

Every religion are different. So don't judge each other. At the end of the day, it comes back to you. So don't criticize or being sarcastic about others. Look at yourself first before saying about others. We're made of blood and flesh and we bleed if we're wounded. We all have the same blood in us.

I want to do this the right way. When you have the intention to do something good, you already gain 'pahala', let alone doing itself. The 'pahala' is even bigger. I know some of us could change overnight. Remember, not everyone. You do not have the right to judge a person if she's learning to cover up her aurat, even if it means 'sometimes'. At least she already started to practice and she made the first move. She already have the intention. We wear hijab to please Allah, not others. So why judge? Why?

" The deeds are considered by their intentions, and a person will get the reward according to his intentions. So whoever emigrated for Allah and his Messenger, then his emigration will be for Allah and his Messenger; and whoever emigrated for worldly benefits or for a woman to marry, his emigration would be for what he emigrated for." ~Al-Bukhari

Covering up is not just about covering up your 'aurat'. It's about changing your lifestyle too. How you act, your attitude, how you talk to others, respecting people and so on. It's about covering inside out. Each and every one of us has the right to make decision for themselves, so leave this to me. It's between me and Him. It doesn't change the fact that I'm a Muslim. Don't be judgmental. We're equal on this temporary world. Instead, be happy that your 'sisters' are changing to a betterment. How about you? Have you started yet? Question yourself before you question others. You are no near to perfect, so do I, but at least we're trying to learn about our religion. Not just by religion written on your birth certificate.

For me, covering up your aurat is a beautiful thing. Do not tarnish this with your ungrateful words. It hurts. Give good advise, smile to that person when speaking, tell her that she's doing a good deed. We, humans, are fuel by motivation from others. So please don't tell me you're not. You like when people compliment you in any aspect, beauty particularly. That's one of the reason Allah created us. To support each other. No one can live alone forever. We're all destined to help each other as brothers and sisters. We all came from one source so don't create the differences. You and me are no different. Full of sins and now, trying to change. 

To those non-Muslims, it doesn't change your Muslim friend into someone else, she is still that blur and quirky girl you knew back then. It's just that she choose a different path. A path that gives her the tranquility and peace she long needed.

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I have been looking many websites on DIY props for wedding deco as well as for my home decorations. Some of them can be sooo inspiring. DIY projects do take up your time but it saves you the $$$.

 You can browse this website by A Beautiful Mess. They have loads of ideas from DIY office table to DIY sewing project.

I won't be having candy bar because I don't consume sugary food so I do not want the kids attending my wedding consume them too. Plus it will be a waste because my wedding will consist of adults and senior citizens. I believe they're not into this candy bar thing. Plus, I don't want the candy bar to attract the guests attention from the purpose itself which is......me

Even my Save the Date photos were taken by my sister-in-law in Bukit Tinggi which I have blogged here. Some places charges you around RM5 if you are taking wedding photos but not this one. RM12 for adult as the entrance fee. I suggest that you go early morning because the weather is not as cold as in Cameron nor Genting in the afternoon. The outcome was simply beautiful. It was also because of the natural scenery. I was provided with RAW phots, edited them here and there and added my own wording. Juan said 'Letting my inner Picasso out'.

I collect glass bottles. Once the plastic bag is full, I would sell them at a recycle center. A whole of a plastic bag. I thought since my wedding is around the corner,  it would be nice if I spent my time and energy into doing something special with these glasses. I'm planning to paint them in pastel colors and use them as my wedding deco. It will be look sweet and heavenly. Wasn't sure whether to use them as deco for my photo booth or deco for my registry table.


I collect tin cans too. The same, I used to bring them to the recycle center and sell them for a few bucks. You know, the extra cash. It's not much but it's something. After browsing a few creative website, I'd thought I'll turn the cans into DIY candle lantern. Carves with names beside the cans. It would look so cute and romantic.

This was taken at about 6am on Sunday. Our flight was scheduled at 8.15am by Air Asia. Reason being, the next flight to Penang was about 10ish pm. I didn't want to reach home that late. We took KLIA Express from Sentral station, transit at Salak Tinggi and took a bus to LCCT. On another note, it was Juan's first ride on KLIA Express as well and my first on the bus to LCCT. He didn't show any form of excitement. I guess for him, it's just another ordinary train ride like the LRT or KTM Commuter.

It's different for me because every time I travel on the KLIA Express, I develop this special feeling. Exciting, happy, regardless of how many times I have traveled in it. I love the smooth ride, the cold, the seats, the people. What I love most is sometimes you get to see pilots or stewardess traveling to KLIA for the first shift (Again, I'm no lesbian). They're just hot!

Upon reaching Penang International Airport, we walked down towards the arrival hall. We passed by the baggage claim belt. I was walking behind Juan. We should turn left, instead I was the only one doing it, while Juan walked straight and confidently towards the baggage claim. I stood there a few seconds thinking 'Do we have any luggage to claim?'. Then realized we didn't have any. I don't know why I called him out. I should have stand there and watch how far he'll go only to realized that he has gone the wrong way. It's going to be an epic.. Hahahahahaha

Me: Yang, where are you going?

Juan: Oohh, damn. I thought it was there.

Me: You so confident huh. (Lol). I don't know why I go and call you. Should just see until where you want to walk.

Juan: (Laughed) Ah, bloody hell.

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