So, the time of the year is around the corner. Hotels, restaurants and cafes will be swarm with families celebrating their mothers. However for me, I'll be curling up in Cameron Highlands with Juan and his friends, sipping a cup of tea and drunk with laughter because the people who will be joining us are bunch of clowns. That's what I need before starting the next dreaded Monday.

So let's start.

My mum. Well....

An individual who's loud but soft at heart. Not until she opens her mouth, nagging. For God sake, you'll be running miles away.

Me and my mum did not started well when I was a teenage. Going through a rebellious phase taught my mum the meaning of patience. My mum's main weapon was the 'cili padi' or ang moh called it the 'bird's eye chilli' and the belt. Both were used in the process of discipline. 

There was this one time, can't remember what it was. I have chillis shoved into my mouth. My mum shuts the door and it felt like forever. I was not given any water to drink instead I make use of the carpet in the room. I lick it like I have licked the best lollipop in the world, then I was smart enough to rub my eyes with my finger. So pandai kan.

My mum may have the hardest head ever but she's forgiving. But as I grow up, I gave in quite a lot. Not wanting to pick a fight with a 60 years old lady. Her nagging can drive everyone crazy...and... she can even remembers a 30 years old stories.

But again, I would like to thank her for all the things she has done for both me and my sister. Like......

'Girl, why is there a big snake in the room?' *our panties are referred as big snake* or my mum will be shouting my name when it's time to come home from playtime during Maghrib and whatever that mums do.

Happy Mother's Day, mummy!

The Taj Mahal from Persian and Arabic, "crown of palaces", pronounced; also "the Taj"is a white marble mausoleum located in Agra, Uttar Pradesh, India. The Taj Mahal's mausoleum complex of white domed marble is actually an integrated complex of many structures. Construction began sometime around 1632 and was completed in 1653, while employing around 20,000 artisans throughout the empire.[6] The construction was entrusted to a board of architects with Ustad Ahmad Lahauri believed to have assumed the role of chief architect.

The Taj Mahal stands on the southern bank of the Yamuna River. It was commissioned in 1632 by the Mughal emperor Shah Jahan to house the tomb of his third wife, Mumtaz Mahal. The mausoleum is widely recognized as "the jewel of Muslim art in India". Designated a UNESCO World Heritage Site in 1983, the Taj Mahal attracts some 3 million visitors a year. It is one of the world’s most celebrated structures, a symbol of India’s rich history and is regarded by many as the best example of the Mughal architecture. The Taj Mahal combines elements from Islamic, Persian, Turkish and Indian architectural styles.

 Taj Mahal's entrance ticket is the most expensive, Rs 750 per person. If you would like to watch the sunrise in Taj, advisable that you arrive around 5.30am to purchase ticket and line up. The security check will occupied most of your time and do not bring in any food (except mineral water), toys and monopod (I do not know why). Wear the food cover (provided together with your ticket) or remove your shoes at the shoe counter.

As our homestay is situated around 16km from Taj Mahal, the cost for tuk-tuk was around Rs 150.

The view of the Taj Mahal is so marvelous that I never thought I would be able to step foot my presence there. When you're there, enjoy the view and just spend some time lazing around the taj like how we did and take as much photos as you can as memory keepsake.

If Allah helps you, none can overcome you; and if He forsakes you, who is there after Him that can help you? And in Allah (Alone) let believers put their trust. 

(Quran, Surah Aal-e-Imran: 160)

Trying to write about your journey on hijrah is like cracking your head trying to solve an Additional Math question, or harder than that.....The typing last a few seconds, follow by the backspace then it stopped....*while chomping on my Nutella cheese tart*

But, here it goes.....As I embark my journey towards finding something to cover the hole I develop spiritually, I was struggling. What was I missing? I searched so hard, consulted so many people, listening to so many religious speech, it helps at that point of time. They were only temporary motivation.

 It was between wanting to do it, must do it, or do it willingly when the time comes. It was a blend of  'must do it' and 'do it willingly when the time comes'. It was a scary journey for me. Thinking whether I have done it right and was it in line with my attitude. In fact, after donning the hijab, there'll be a 360 degree change. I didn't want to be an individual who covers their head but do not 'cover' the way they talk and act.

It was not easy although you think all you need to do is put a pin and wrap your head around. That piece of cloth represents your religion. So can I make this happen? *thinking to myself*. That thinking took me a whole of 3 years before taking this plunge. A lifetime commitment and responsibility to God. A decision where 'eh, tak jadi la nak buat' half way change does not exist.

People kept telling me 'Take your time, change when you're ready'. I process that at first, but after putting so much thought into this, I think I will never be ready for anything nor there will a perfect time for anything. It's now or never.

It was suppose to be easy for me as I was familiar with the cloth back in high school, KAFA (religious class), friends but now when it was time, it felt so strange.

'This piece of cloth will cover my head?' or 'Oh no, I had to wake up super early to get ready' or 'Ish, lecehnya' or 'Alamak, nanti orang tanya banyak questions' . That was reasons I gave to myself everytime I open my wardrobe looking at my scarf collection. This continues for the next 3 years. But the peak was during Ramadhan 2012........

Shawl and chiffon maxi dress by Poplook, handbag by Cath Kidston Singapore.

Himalaya products are known for its' natural ingredients, without any preservative added. Their outlet can be easily found in most major supemarkets. However, the prices can be a little expensive as they're imported products.

During my visit to India, I managed to get myself a few of the product at a very super cheap price. Like super, super, super cheap. One of the many beauty products I bought was the Himalaya Revitalizing Night cream.

Himalaya’s Revitalizing Night Cream, packed with vitamins and essential oils, nourishes skin with vitalizers, nutrients and moisture. It contains combination of Lemon, Crab Apple, Tomato, Wheat and White Lily, which revive dry, lackluster skin and skin that has been exposed to harsh environmental conditions.

As I work in air conditioned office environment, my skin is prone to drying. So I make sure that I have a product that could seal moisture that I have lost during the day and as I often go out for lunch, the pollutions and dust made it worst,

Lemon has an overall soothing and relaxing effect. The citric acid present in Lemon lightens and softens your skin. Lemon juice also fades freckles, age spots and eliminates blackheads.

Crab Apple has soothing and keratolytic properties, reduces inflammation and removes dead skin fragments. It is a rich source of vitamins and prevents skin cell degeneration and premature skin aging.

Wheat, due to its high concentration of Vitamin E as well as proteins and natural antioxidants, is highly effective for most skin types and serves a number of purposes. Antioxidants improve circulation and help repair damaged skin cells, eliminating that wrinkled-leather look caused by sun damage. Wheat Germ Oil helps soothe the irritation and redness from eczema and psoriasis, helping to relieve itching and promote new cell growth.

White Lily is reported to possess soothing, astringent, anti-inflammatory and skin conditioning properties.

Tomato fruit is a rich source of alpha hydroxy acids. The polyphenols and carotenoids of Tomato are responsible for its antioxidant activity which nourish and moisturize the skin.

I like the smell and texture. It wasn't so thick nor too watery. It has a smell that replicate  between cherry and tomatoes? But I guess, different people will have different smell pallete. What I dislike about this cream is that, it tends to be a little bit oily on your skin if you apply it with your serum beforehand. So I skip my serum and apply the cream after toner before my bedtime. Your face will feel a little bit sticky but after a while, it felt smooth.