Our trip to Muar was back in November 2016. It was because my dad wanted to visit my sister in Muar and also because I wanted to go for a last road trip before I deliver and get imprison during confinement for 2 months. It was just me, my mum and my dad. It wasn't a peak period at that time so we managed to secure a room for the 3 of us. My sister slept over with us on the 2nd night.

Ok back to the main subject. I'm turning 9 months in a week time and that marks the almost-the-end journey of my pregnancy and where the WAITING games starts. You know what, I felt some mild contraction while waiting for everyone to arrive yesterday as parking was a problem at the cafe so we decided to carpool. It was an uncomfortable feeling. It feels like you're having your usual period cramp. I think so, cause I never had cramps before. I was indecisive to whether cancel the whole plan or just to go ahead with it. But at the back of my mind, there was a 50-50 chance of me getting into labor this soon cause doctor has been giving me positive feedback on my pregnancy growth. So I don't see anything unusual signs kicking in. But hey, you never know if this little one decided to join in the celebration too.

My feet starts to swollen but it's not obvious cause I have what they call it, 'kulit nipis' so you can't differentiate it. But my fingers are slightly swollen that I can't actually fit into my engagement ring but I force it in too -__- . It feels weird to have bare fingers without anything on it. Baby starts to stretch a lot in the tummy because of the limited space he has in my uterus. Has been actively stretching in the day as well as during my bed time. He is soooo active that I hardly have enough sleep for the past few weeks. So I became a Sleeping Beauty the next day.

If you ask me what do I feel now? One word, NERVOUS. As I do not know what to expect, I'm focusing on reading and researching on how to control my breathing to ease the contraction pain and not being panic when the day comes. But sometimes, I just don't want to think about it and just think about it later when it is time for labor. I always pray my labor will be as smooth as my pregnancy journey. I can't be more grateful than having a great pregnancy experience throughout these 9 months. I've been blessed with a great health and just normal morning sickness. My journey was not as bad as some mummy-to-be who had to endure severe morning sickness or other symptoms through their 9 months of bearing their child.



It's weird how God can turn something bad into good in a matter of time. It's a mystery. And this pregnancy has taught to be even more grateful with what I have and what I've been blessed with. I learn to see the small things or small events as blessing in disguise. I see who my real friends are and what they meant to me. I learn how to appreciate my mum even more thinking of the hardship that she had to go through in raising her family, now that I'm becoming a mummy myself. I realized it wasn't easy and sometimes I take her for granted. I learn to appreciate my marriage even more than it was last time. I learn that you can't do everything by yourself cause you're not a Superwoman. You are at your weakest when you're pregnant, as you're not able to do and move like you were childless.

When you're pregnant, it makes you realize that the world is not as complicated as you thought. It's how you perceive the world. All that matter was your family and you want the best for them. Nothing else matters. Having a kid is a LIFETIME commitment. You can't undo what have been done. It's not like buying a car or getting a house. I've always thought that I will never be ready to raise a child but then again, if you were to wait, you'll never be ready for anything in life. It takes COURAGE to start something and you have to start somewhere right. Am I ready for a marriage last time? No, I wasn't. Everyone knows that MARRIAGE is a gamble but it's one of the many risk that you take in life. You'll never learn if you don't make mistake. But you know, I'm very happy and grateful that I have such great husband who never complains, a great mum and dad and a sister who always there to listen. Yes, we do fought at times but fighting means you get to learn more about them. You get to align everyone in the same goal and objectives.

Pregnancy also taught me to not take things or people for granted. It makes you feel humble. It makes you feel that life is soooo fragile that good things can be taken away from you anytime. I feel so bless to be able to carry this little one for a whole of 9 months. It changed me into a better person and taught me to be humble and patience and that you don't have control over everything. Yes, pregnancy really test your patience -__- You don't lose anything by being a nice person. Instead you gain more in life.

At the end of the day, whether you're pregnant or not, you have the choice to be who you want to be. The decision you make today will definitely have an impact on you in your next 50 years. So don't wait until it's too late to be a good person.

Have you heard about Tao Bao before. The famous Chinese 'Lazada' that people have been talking about? Well, EZBuy Malaysia is an English translated version of Tao Bao where you can purchase everything under one roof but at a lower price. Like lowwwwwwww. You'll go cray cray for this I tell you. Except that you might need your Chinese friend to translate some of the words in the website.

So how did I ended up purchasing something from EZBuy Malaysia? My office does not provide microwave for us to heat up our food and I've been eating cold food for the past 3 years. I know it's not healthy but I had no choice. I will normally heat them up at home and bring it to the office. So I had to find a way to retain the heat so that I can still enjoy my food warm during my lunch time.

Been searching for a good insulated food jar around but most of them were too small. So I searched through EZBuy Malaysia and found Supor Insulated food jar that has 3 sub compartment in it. Although it's bulky but the layer of the jar that is important to keep the food warm and fresh. You can also bring it for picnic or keep your baby food warm or hot.

Memang best pakai this food insulated jar. It comes with 3 plastic container inside the jar. 2 medium size and 1 smaller size.

I'm almost reaching the end of my first pregnancy. How do I feel if you ask me. Eermm. Nervous, happy, scared, unknown. It's more towards:

'How will my life be after this little one is out?'
'Will my breast milk be enough?' 
'How do I plan to raise him?'
'Will he be healthy enough?'
'Which nursery do I want to place him?'
'Do I still have my ME time after having a baby?'
'Will I have enough sleep?'

The question are far more than what I listed and I understand that every women goes through a process of being a First Time Mother syndrome. I would say that I will definitely miss being pregnant. Being able to feel what it is like being kicked and punched from the inside. It's a feeling you can't explain. You'll even wonder 'How did I do that?'.

I've been through a smooth pregnancy for the whole of 9 months. Alhamdulillah. No complications or what so ever. Just the usual morning sickness, tiredness, sleepy, baby actively kicking and I do walk a lot throughout this process. I still do house chores as usual but at a slower pace because I didn't want to put unnecessary pressure on my body. As of work, I took it one step at a time. Whenever my work load is a lot, I'll take some break in between in order to not strain my mental and physical condition.

Juan has been supportive throughout this whole journey, so does my family. Whenever my parents come over, they would help me with some of the house work especially the laundry. Juan has been helping a lot in cooking dinner, washing the dishes, preparing my breakfast, He has been in charge of my diet for the past 9 months and making sure that I consume my supplement provided by the clinic like Vitamin B complex, Folic Acid, Vitamin C and Iron tablets.

I was away a few weekends ago with my parents. We traveled down south to Muar to visit my sister cause my dad misses her *but he was in denial*. I had the chance to step into her college and had the experience of how it looks like to be in med school *grine*. I wanted to be a doctor since I was small and that ambition has never changed until today but man, why must people create Maths??? Why oh why. I hate Maths to death and irony now is, I deal with numbers, day in and day out. Karma huh.

Anyway, on the day that I was coming back from Muar, Juan texted me, asking me to inform him once I'm at the border of Penang. It was weird cause he never does that. So I asked him if he prepares a surprise for me since my birthday is around the corner or perhaps he bought my favorite kuih? Neither both. So the next thing I thought was 'Habisla my car, sure accident'. It was not that too. I was too impatience that I asked him to tell me the whole story over Whatsapp. HE GOT INTO ACCIDENT a day before I came back.

So ten of thousands of question were thrown at him. Luckily he was not badly hurt although it left him with wounds on his knee, hands, stomach, elbow and a dislocated right arm. But he can't move a lot and that means, all the house chores are transferred to me *cry a bucket*. At least he's safe and nothing that was serious.

The first thing that came into my thick skull was 'Oh no, all house chores will be on me'. It's true. I don't blame him cause it was an accident.

I'm currently heavily pregnant so the rate of me doing housework? Don't even bother to mention. Even sweeping the house took me like 30 minutes. Let alone washing the clothes, cleaning up the kitchen, etc.

I'm grateful that although he's in pain, he never neglects his responsibility. I know it's hard and I can see that he's trying his best to help me out given the condition I'm in now. I can;t imagine if something worst were to happen to him.

Travel is not a reason that you can't put your makeup on, even the most minimal. You still wanna look good while exploring the world. But, bringing a bottle of makeup remover or cleansing oil can be leceh cause you need to bring that extra cotton face. Especially traveling with infant. You need everything to be fast and practical.

Women's body changes by time. Some will look pretty old for their age especially after you have had your first child. That's what I heard from experienced mothers. It scares me honestly. I didn't want to look like a 80 year old ah ma after giving birth to my first kid.

I've been pretty strict when it comes to taking care of my skin except for the past few months, I've been lacking of that discipline until I found myself carrying Gajah Jr. I knew that from that moment on, I can't be lazy. This mama gotta step up to her skin care routine.

I basically uses the same toner for day and night and Thayers has been my 2nd bottle. Each bottle could last me a year, usage of twice a week. It comes in a 375ml and I got them mostly from Lazada. This toner is great cause it's alcohol-free so it doesn't leave harsh effect on my skin. As for the serum, I have just started being a loyal customer to it. Serum is THE most important part of your skin care. As you grow older, your skin start to sag. Depending on your specific skincare concerns, you may need higher amounts of these valuable skincare ingredients with anti-aging benefits.

Serums shouldn’t contain sunscreen actives like a daytime moisturizer would or the emollients or light, texture-enhancing ingredients your nighttime moisturizer should have. Instead, serums use that extra space to pack in other beneficial ingredients such as more antioxidants or skin restoring ingredients—and these complement the other products in your routine.

A serum won’t replace your daytime moisturizer with SPF or your nighttime moisturizer, but they WILL boost your overall anti-aging results and overall healthy appearance when used morning and evening.

The Innisfree No Sebum loose powder is also something that I've been using constantly. It is a sebum control powder that allows for non-greasy, downy baby skin, Sebum absorption powder and mineral sebum control powder absorb excess sebum for a bright, downy skin as if presently putting on makeup.

It also contains Jeju natural minerals and mint for refreshing control of oil and moisture. Jeju natural minerals and mint restores an unhealthy balance of oil and moisture, leaving a refreshing finish. Absorbing excess sebum and oil for downy makeup and an even skin tone. This powder also absorbs excess sebum and oil to prevent makeup from becoming patchy, while correcting dull skin tone to keep the skin bright and radiant all day.

Day routine:


As I have been applying makeups a lot throughout my pregnancy, I had to get myself a good makeup remover which also a contact lenses friendly one. I found the Garnier during my trip back to Singapore last year. You see, when you're pregnant, not all pregnant women will have that glow you've always dream of. I didn't have that but I develop slightly dark circle. So I will pack my face with a thin layer of concealer or medium coverage foundation before applying my eye liner and blusher. Those are my go-to regime before heading out. I don't like heavy makeup but I would love to look presentable whenever I'm out. It makes me feel confident.

For night cream, I opt for the gel type which doesn't leave my skin oily especially on my T-zone. It feels light and absorb instantly into my skin. My skin doesn't feel dry the next morning and I love the scent too. Lightly scented.

Night routine:

I read somewhere from an online article that pregnant ladies will develop this 'glow' in their 2nd or perhaps 3rd trimester. I doubt it but one thing I'm glad that my hair fall problem is not severe like some mother-to-be. My hair is already thin since born, so I don't need those extra shedding.

I didn't really grow much except for my cheeks and my boobies (obviously it is due to milk production for the baby). I had to change my outfit size from S to M which for me, is still acceptable. I developed pimples especially on the chin during my 1st trimester but it wasn't that bad and soon it diminishes when I enter my 2nd and 3rd stage of pregnancy.

So far it has been a smooth ride, alhamdulillah. Except some slight discomfort at the abdomen, constipation problem (major!), slightly back pain, peeing more often than before (sometimes it's only a 5 minutes gap), trouble in sleeping cause the baby keeps kicking. Yeap, that's all I guess. And I noticed that I walked like a snail. I mean snail could be faster than me.

I've seen some pregnant women who's stomach is as big as a giant egg walk as though they're competing in a marathon. How do you ladies did that? I'm halfway panting here within a few steps from my car door. I wish I'd have requested for a maternity parking at the office. Okay, that part. The reason why didn't I get myself a maternity parking. I hate exercising which I know that is important for mother-to-be cause I love to sleep. So the only solution I can think of is walking to and fro from my car to my cube, twice a day. Or perhaps a brisk walk to our in-house mini mart. While weekends, instead of spending my time walking at the park, I'd rather walk at the mall, doing some window shopping or perhaps get myself 1 or 2 unnecessary stuff. Hahaha. Brilliant idea isn't it.